My Dream House and why I want it so Bad

I want a house in a nice area where I don't ave to worry about too much crime. The location also needs to have a good school district with an affordable day care. I imagine this place to be in Crown Point near the square where there are lots of things to do and a lot of things happen but still far enough away that I'm not extremely close to all the traffic of the square.

I want the outside of the house to have a full wrap around porch that's covered so my husband, kids, and I have some where to just sort of relax outside. I'd like too have a closed in back porch that is insulated and has heating and cooling ability so no matter what the weather my kids have somewhere to play where the sun can still come in and the weather doesn't matter. I also want a gated backyard so that someday I can have a swing set for the kids back there and someday even get a dog to grow with the family.

On the inside of the house I would prefer it to be a ranch but I could deal with a two story house but it has to have a basement. I'd like 4 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. I'd like a private bathroom for the master bedroom with a jacuzzi tub and lots of space. The master bedroom needs to be big like estimated 12 X 12. I'd like a room for each of my kids. And another room that would be the toy/gaming room. I'd like the basement to not only have space for a laundry room and storage but enough room for me to have space for all my crafting. and as for the second bathroom of course it would have to be somewhere where everyone could use it to include guests. I'd like the living room, dining room, and kitchen to be an open floor plan. In the kitchen I would need a lot of counter space which excludes the coffee bar that for some reason places call counter space but is really just space that collects crap and things people don't want to put away. I need a pantry and lots cabinet space.

I really think that for a family of four this is not a lot to ask and is pretty average... Am I wrong??? But I want this to be me and my husbands first home and our last. That's why the location is so important. I want it to be somewhere we can be forever and somewhere that when the kids get older and grow up they will have a place they knew for a long time and had memories to come back to.

But right now if I had that house I would leave my wonderful husband with the kids and take a soak in the jacuzzi tub and then head down to the basement craft area to craft. I love my kids but my oldest can't stay away from everything he isn't suppose to be doing and when he decides to calm down on everything he isn't suppose to do my youngest starts screaming... and sometimes she screams for no reason. I feel so stressed and tired and irritable... I feel like I need to get away for a whole night or two to catch my breath and be renewed.

My dream home would be a sanctuary where I can get  away without leaving the comforts of my own home or spending a bunch of money to do so. Sometimes I am so happy and feel very lucky to have such a wonderful husband with such amazing children but man! sometimes I think God put them in my life to test my patients... lol...

I am conflicted on loving my life so much or hating it so much...

I was not ready to have children when I did. And I sure wasn't ready for my second. And I hate that because I feel so blessed to have them but wish I could've just had more time to straighten out my life and get everything ready for children. I do not regret having my children nor do I resent them or my husband for it. I enjoy my husband and children very much but sometimes I feel like I have lost site of any type of freedom I had at one time. I hate that I have these feelings and sometimes I just don't know what to do because the conflict in my head is fighting me. I wish I could find a balance somewhere or some how and just love my life all the time without so much stress and irritability.